Especially in the winter time with dark cold days, I sleep much more and eat more carbs -- although this winter has been better, I think because we've had many more sunny days. However, I don't have as many problems with the mental difficulties come spring and summer.
The OCD isn't obvious to many people but it did result in a lot of problems for me in the past, obsessing about events and people who were for me in the past and should be either given a new life with new motivation, or let go.
I've determined to approach my excellent psychiatrist about these issues, some leading to a lot of anger that comes out sideways so to speak. That's her job, to help me through what led to the legal difficulties I experienced three years ago. She doesn't urge me to talk and I often spend only 10 minutes with her every three weeks, and she doesn't encourage me to talk about anything in particular, so it's up to me, as I prefer it, of course, and perhaps someone knows that. I like to do it my way.
But I need help. And I do want to start a new life with new motivation and no obsessions or delusions, perhaps for the first time to appreciate the past as it was, riddled with dysfunction and inaccuracies but also love.
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