Split Personality

I've wondered over the years if I actually suffered from dissociative illness or multiple personality disorder rather than schizophrenia at first? I had a distinct personality I called the Buccaneer whom I've discussed before, and he certainly kept me alive on many occasions but he was aggressive although I was never violent or dangerous. A kind male friend described me as "malleable" recently, which means amenable to change I believe, and a good friend also agreed. If I ever did suffer from a dissociative disorder, which seems rather likely, then I don't anymore and it's incredible that should have been overcome. I did put emotions and experiences in what I always described as "boxes" and that's disturbingly like what a dissociative disorder does as I understand it. Perhaps I'll discuss that with my psych when I see her on Monday but I don't discuss anything at length and want to see her less often, so will simply make this appointment as meaningful as I can so I don't have to follow-up a lot. I come from a psychologically and emotionally abusive background; as well as physically abusive on many occasions. It could be that I put my emotions and feelings into little boxes as a means to protect myself. It's interesting that my friend Bob from Michigan confused SZ with dissociative disorder. I thought about that and wondered if perhaps that was part of my illness. I asked a psych 25 or 30 years ago if he thought that was the case. He didn't answer me, as so often they didn't back then, and I don't know if it's because they didn't know or because they didn't know what to do about it if it were true.